So, change really is constant.

So today, I let a bit of myself go.
Some things needed to be said and I went along and said it.

"I don't like not getting the attention I deserve or once had" There. I said it.

I'm not some attention seeker, I'm merely disappointed that the focus has been diverted to other sources of energy. Come on, once you feed off a certain level of attention, you get comfortable. It's infuriating when things that are so so pleasing and comfortable to you leans towards the more 'alien' side of things. After a few major changes these past few years, a few things remained constant. There were some great things in my life that I could easily rely on and turn to... But now, I can no longer assume 'x' to be constant.

SO change is the only thing constant, and sometimes I can't help but condemn change, but I really do thank God for it.

SO that's that. Life is big and I'm going to do other stuff rather than situate myself in a place that I don't want to beeeeee.

So good-bye comfort and rainbows... HElLlLLlooOooOoOoo World, this is me.

I think this is interesting

A quiz on facebook revealed a lot of things about myself. Things I never really blogged about or wrote on paper. So here it is:

Nicole take the quiz What type of person are you? and Result : '7. Hedonist'
'7. Hedonist' : Hedonists are energetic, optimistic and dynamic; their appearance is full of optimism and happiness. They are spontaneous and full of fantasy, but sometimes they're impulsive and naive; they avoid pain and have opposite feelings at committing. They have a lot of persuasiveness. RELATIONSHIPS: Family and friendship is very important to you. Relationships are based on pleasure. You can be a loyal, helpful and stimulating lover, if you have experienced your own priorities. It's difficult for you to have only one lover. You also can't believe anyone would want to commit with you. FIXATION: planning VICE: unlimitedness VIRTUE: sobriety PROFESSIONS: a lot of jobs at the same time; a free, unruly profession

If I could just have my way and have complete control over my life (ADD a bit of confidence, SUBTRACT a bit of fear) I would:

Drop out of University
Fly to the U.S.
Work at a kid's summer camp
Work as a secretary/bar lady in NY while living with someone in a loft in Brooklyn, NY.
Go to China and motorcycle my way through the Great wall
Devote some time in a third-world country
Live in Italy for 3-months
Own a vespa/bicycle to get around
Give myself the chance to fall in love with the exciting culture in Spain
Relax in the Greek Islands
Discover myself in Jerusalem

XOXO

people hating for no reason...

I got summer hatin on me
Cause I’m hotter than the sun
Got Spring hatin on me
Cause I never sprung
Winter Hatin on me
Cause I’m cooler than y’all
But I will never I will never I will never fall.
I’m being hated by the season
So what's this hatin for no reason?

p.s. i love lil-wayne

xoxo

studying

I really don't like studying...

I really don't want to do any further studying after this degree (which I really hope to get through)...

I'd rather experience life...

I don't like reading textbooks, that tell you, this is that becasue of this and that, therefore you have this... I'd rather find that out for myself thank you very much...

I'd rather that my head didn't hurt when I get home from work and uni...

I'd rather be a happy chap always rather than be a sheltered busy-body that finds oh so much joy in eating oreos dipped in peanut butter in her bed watching T.V. for a good 30 minutes... It's pure bliss when that's your only relaxing time...

I want to skydive...

I want to run in the morning and then have a slow-paced breakfast, clean up a bit, do a bit of business work (you know to earn some cash) and then meet up with some friends for lunch at Bondi, go for a walk along the esplanade...

I want to meet my husband... SO uber-ly gay, but I want to meet him!!! hahaha

I want to scream...

I want to update my facebook, and upload albums upon albums of photos...

I want to put songs on my ipod...

I want to be able to say "yeah let's go hang out" without having to feel guilty because of the lack of study I've done or the lack of sleep my body is experiencing...

I want to, AND ONE DAY I WILL... That's what gets me through the days...

So... it's been a while!

I've been on holidays (off uni - still working f/t) and I guess, I had more important things to do and think about, but now that I'm back at uni - okay it's been about 6-7 weeks now, I guess i'm trying my absolute best to avoid the reality that exists - that "I should probably do my scheduled readings for this week and prepare for my exams"...

It is a complete nightmare trying to get back into the habit, because all I can think about is my exciting trip, my "semi-around-the-world-tour-physical-journey" or maybe just journey for short... I can not wait to go go go go go go and fly away!

Maybe I shall tell you how my travel plans are going, and exactly what's on the plate right now ...

OKAY HERE WE GO BABY!

November 23 - Sydney to Hong Kong via Melbourne on Cathay Pacific - arriving HK at 3:05pm
We check into a hotel (hotel name n/a) for the night, do some crazy afternoon/night shopping - you know maximise the only time we'll have there, because we'll be leaving to go Philippines the next morning!



November 24 - HK to Philippines - 2 weeks here in my birthplace, I cannot wait to just relax, eat, act rich and get uberly pampered. I've been investing in some real estate property, so i don't have to think about $$$ here! YEAH baby! cash money what!?

The Spa - Alabang


I really want to go white-water-rafting and so hopefully that works out!!!
I can't wait to get a pedicure, and my hair did, and my nails do, my back massaged and just everything that feels good under the sun, without hesitation and financial worry!

A week later, Joanna joins me in Philippines! WOOOOHOOOO! We're gonna eat so much our tummies start to get numb, it's what we do best, what can i say?

December 07 - Manila to London via HK - 11 hours

And then on the 8th my western europe tour begins :) First stop, Belgium, followed by Luxembourg, Switzerland, Austria, Italy, South of France and finally, PARIS, the <3 of France...

We then London it for 3 days before we head down to NEW YORK, do the whole christmas thing.

Okay i really can't be bothered at the moment! and i'm heading to Andora for some hot chocolate cos it's been too long. Silly people had to close my local starbucks at Martin place down!

xoxo
nicole

It feels like there are fairy flies around

Make a wish when they land in your hand, and it will come true :)

I've had such a good day so far, I think it's partly because I ended the night off really well last night, hearing the empowering Joyce Meyer at Hillsong Conference 08 and that just started my morning...

This morning I looked my daggiest, I haven't put on my sneakers (or 'KICKS') to wear to work in like almost a year and TODAY i was wearing an over sized black coat, with my beautiful NB orange and purple sneakers and I bump into Geovani, one of my favourite guy friends from back in the days of high school. He was probably my hottest best guy friend back then, oh but how annoying he was!!! I always look daggy when I bump into him. Seriously... But irregardless, we're still pretty much the same, well obviously we've changed quite a lot, it has been about 4 years since he left high school and started with his plumbing stuff, but the way we approach each other is exactly like how it was in the good old days, teasingly, jokingly and honestly. I miss Geovani and his beautiful blue-eyed husky 'gow-cho' whom I fell in love with at the very first glimpse of him. Maybe I'll try and catch up with them both some time in this life...

That's all for now,

xoxo

neecolie <3