So, change really is constant.

So today, I let a bit of myself go.
Some things needed to be said and I went along and said it.

"I don't like not getting the attention I deserve or once had" There. I said it.

I'm not some attention seeker, I'm merely disappointed that the focus has been diverted to other sources of energy. Come on, once you feed off a certain level of attention, you get comfortable. It's infuriating when things that are so so pleasing and comfortable to you leans towards the more 'alien' side of things. After a few major changes these past few years, a few things remained constant. There were some great things in my life that I could easily rely on and turn to... But now, I can no longer assume 'x' to be constant.

SO change is the only thing constant, and sometimes I can't help but condemn change, but I really do thank God for it.

SO that's that. Life is big and I'm going to do other stuff rather than situate myself in a place that I don't want to beeeeee.

So good-bye comfort and rainbows... HElLlLLlooOooOoOoo World, this is me.

I think this is interesting

A quiz on facebook revealed a lot of things about myself. Things I never really blogged about or wrote on paper. So here it is:

Nicole take the quiz What type of person are you? and Result : '7. Hedonist'
'7. Hedonist' : Hedonists are energetic, optimistic and dynamic; their appearance is full of optimism and happiness. They are spontaneous and full of fantasy, but sometimes they're impulsive and naive; they avoid pain and have opposite feelings at committing. They have a lot of persuasiveness. RELATIONSHIPS: Family and friendship is very important to you. Relationships are based on pleasure. You can be a loyal, helpful and stimulating lover, if you have experienced your own priorities. It's difficult for you to have only one lover. You also can't believe anyone would want to commit with you. FIXATION: planning VICE: unlimitedness VIRTUE: sobriety PROFESSIONS: a lot of jobs at the same time; a free, unruly profession

If I could just have my way and have complete control over my life (ADD a bit of confidence, SUBTRACT a bit of fear) I would:

Drop out of University
Fly to the U.S.
Work at a kid's summer camp
Work as a secretary/bar lady in NY while living with someone in a loft in Brooklyn, NY.
Go to China and motorcycle my way through the Great wall
Devote some time in a third-world country
Live in Italy for 3-months
Own a vespa/bicycle to get around
Give myself the chance to fall in love with the exciting culture in Spain
Relax in the Greek Islands
Discover myself in Jerusalem

XOXO